Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Life of a Hardcore Casual Gamer

There are three particular upcoming PS3 titles I'm really excited about, which will condemn me in some parts of the gaming community to the Level 1 status of Casual Gamer: Flower, Aquanaut's Holiday: Hidden Memories, and Africa. These games look innovative, beautiful, and relaxing. As a long-time controller-thrower, I think cruising the savanna and taking pictures of gazelle will be a breath of fresh air (tinged slightly by the scent of rhino dung). But what I think is most exciting about them is that they're different, part of the baby-steps toward revolution that have gotten me so excited about this generation of games. Though the Wii promised a new era of gaming (and was even called the Revolution in its development stages), nothing I've seen from it so far has impressed me– more games for younger kids (almost always based on movies), Wii Sports, which sticks to one of the oldest genres of gaming, except now you swing your arm instead of pressing A, and Wii Music, which might not have ever been created if it weren't for the massive success of Rock Band. Meanwhile, there's no U.S. release date in sight for stuff like Capucine, which looks actually innovative and unique. I'm not writing this with the clannishness of some Playstation or XBox devotees, but with sincere disappointment. I objected to the high price of the PS3 for a long time and rooted for the Wii to become the overcoming underdog– which it did, from everything I've heard about sale numbers, and it's probably thanks to the Wii's popularity that I got my PS3 for $400).

But, while I'm glad that Wii lured in the non-gamers, I haven't seen much from it for people like me, who are familiar with the gaming tradition and are tired of seeing so many games recycling themes, gameplay, and genres. Flower, Aquanaut's Holiday, and Africa, though, represent the fundamental change in gaming philosophy I've been hoping for. Of course, all of them came from Japan, where creators are just more ambitious, where people are thankfully much more likely to say, "What the hell, let's make roads that sing! Or a video game where you're wind collecting pollen!" Considering all the great titles I've seen left overseas (I was totally depressed when I discovered Homeland, then discovered that I'd never be able to play it unless I learned Japanese and rigged my Gamecube), I'm pretty excited that the Halo-dominated American market actually let these games sneak in.

I get tired of references to casual gamers that seem to imply that "hardcore" gamers are people with high World of Warcraft levels and "casual gamers" are people who like anything that isn't World of Warcraft. I've been playing games for about 15 years, have spent a huge sum of my hard-earned money on games, and put in hundreds of hours. But I feel some would still brand me a "casual" gamer because I would rather play Animal Crossing than Grand Theft Auto. It's not that I find the status of "hardcore" gamer to be particularly enviable, but the "casual gamer" label often seems to come with this sense that casual gamers are irksome freshmen interrupting the peaceful (read: violent & bloody) world of shoot/slice-'em-up gaming. To me, the differences between "casual" and "hardcore" seem to be not based on experience, but on violence. Call of Duty is a "hardcore" game, Brain Age is a "casual" game, regardless of the difficulty of each (though, admittedly, it does sometimes seem like game difficulty increases with gore).

My hope is that it will become harder to say "I don't like video games." It already irks me a little to hear people say it– how can you dismiss an entire medium when games like Manhunt, LittleBigPlanet, Tomb Raider, Lumines, and Silent Hill are all a part of it? Games like Flower and Africa excite me because in them I can see a future in which video games have just as many genres as films & music and there are no more "average gamers" (i.e. the teenage boy population that gaming has catered to for far too long).

Pandora's XBox 101: Who I Am & Which Games I Could Play Till 3 in the Morning

While I'm waiting on my Playstation 3 to arrive in the mail, about to make the leap to Next-Gen (which I have delayed until now due to resentment, indecisiveness, and lack of financial enthusiasm), is probably a great time to start a gaming blog!

I'm not sure why my need to talk about video games is strong enough to warrant a whole blog separate from my "regular" online journal. It probably has something to do with the fact that I spent a long time trying to find a video game forum that was perfect for me, and I've decided there isn't one. Epidemic immaturity and sexism in the gaming community is one of the biggest reasons, but another is the fact that I'm not very "hip" and tend to be one generation (or two, or three...) behind the games that earn all the busiest threads. While everyone was playing Mass Effect, I was playing Fantastic Dizzy (quirky SEGA platformer featuring a population of egg people called Yolkfolk, and inventory items like "small pygmy cow"). For a long time I was comfortable on the 1UP.com forums, then one poster too many threw around his stupidity and/or bigotry, waiting for people to be impressed with the callousness and un-PCness he was able to display from behind his computer's LCD sheild of anonymity. Then 1UP collapsed all their forum factions into one big category called simply "Games," so one had to swim in the pee-yellowed cesspool in order to hang out on the side and talk to the grown-ups. So I wandered off. I found Womengamers.com and unfortunately almost instantly ran into people just as sleazy as the 1UPers, who seem to be just there to flirt with the girls. The atmosphere at WG is also very silly and cliquey. I love silliness, but when combined with cliqueyness, it's almost impossible to become a part of the community. I love the Iris forum, but it's so quiet.

So I thought I'd just make a blog, where I can babble about games until my fingers are jammed without the pressure of impressing or following the interests of a community. I'll start by a little analysis of myself and type of game-player I am.

I think there are roughly three kinds of gamers: 1) Aggression-expressers, those who enjoy video game violence and the opportunity to experience gore or harm without consequences (either because they have those urges naturally, or because pop culture encourages the notion that being cool and successful means being a James Bond-type assassin or a dangerous drifting Vin Diesel); 2) Escapists, who tend to find this world in some way unsatisfactory, boring, or unaccomodating, or just enjoy a different environment, with unrealistic, atypical possibilities to explore; and 3) Good-Time Havers, who are probably my favorite. People like this are open-minded and will typically try anything they think will be fun. They'll have a few beers and play Mario Party, or they still really like Tetris, or will play Turtles in Time for nostalgic value if they somehow come across it again.

I'm a number 2, who is very wary of number 1's, but is always excited to meet a number 3, but not nearly as excited to meet another 2, since 2-ness does not foster physical interaction at all unless we're on a Final Fantasy forum talking about which character is our favorite and why.
I really like quirkiness in games. Some of my favorite games to play are those with their own "Wonderland" settings, in which developers really strove to create a unique environment– American McGee's Alice, Oddworld, Fantastic Dizzy, Napple Tale: Arisia in Dreamland, and the original Mario video games. I don't think Super Mario World even needs mentioning when it comes to Favorite Game Lists. It's just a given. Like many, it was my induction not into video games, but into an addiction to video games (though I'm thankful no game since that one has consumed me so completely, to the point of not wanting to do anything else; for a year or so after the Christmas I got my SNES, I was a very boring child).

Otherwise, my favorite games are Silent Hill 2, Ico, and Shadow of the Colossus. I could write essays about any of these three (and maybe I will in a later blog entry), but in the interest of keeping the subjects of this first entry more evenly discussed, I'll just say that they're the most thought-provoking, involving, artistic games I've come across.

The systems I play are the SNES, Dreamcast, PS2, Gamecube, and very very recently, the PS3. The darlings of my video game collection are Silent Hill 2, Ico, Shadow of the Colossus, Zelda: Collector's Edition, Zelda: Twilight Princess, Final Fantasy X, Animal Crossing, Parasite Eve and Phantasmagoria. So all my game paraphernalia together isn't nearly as vast as some's, but it is starting to become a slight space problem, with wires and controllers always spilling out of my entertainment center.

So that's me, and my self-indulgent reasons for creating a video game blog. I'm easily classifiable as an RPG nerd, but I'm really just an AoIIFA (Advocator of Innovative, Interesting, Fantastical Atmospheres). As games become more and more advanced and diverse, I'm finding more of my interests turning into games, which is a phenomenon I'm definitely looking forward to.